n a t b s

Looking over my old blog, I realize that I used to write a lot.  I think it was pretty good writing too.  Then I started to wonder why I stopped.  I know that blog specifically fizzled out because I let some people on board who’s style I feel didn’t fit.  Then I couldn’t kick them off because they were my friends so I just stopped putting effort into it.  I kept it up in hopes of reviving it some day, but I’m not sure how to do that without including the same people.  Fuck it, maybe I’ll just dump em.  In the mean time though, I do have this blog in which I have full creative control, yet I’ve unfortunately failed to exercise that control.  That stops now, I’m gonna start writing again.  I really think the trick to it is to just do it.  And to be honest with your emotions.  I just posted two posts that I had written in the past year that I saved to drafts and never published.  I’m not sure why I never published them, they were decent enough.  I think somewhere along the way I lost my courage to put this stuff out there.  On the first blog I used an alias, that helped, perhaps I’ll revive that tradition here.  Perhaps not.  The name “Andrew” is still pretty anonymous even if it’s not an alias.  So I’m getting back into it.  It really doesn’t take that much courage to post some shit on a blog no one visits anyway.